betrayed?

Why do I feel betrayed? Today my best friend tells me that Craig "slept" with my friend Eric. Now, I have known Eric for almost 8 years and he has always been one of the biggest homophobes I've known. And Craig is one of the most flamboyant gay guys I've known. Opposites attract? I don't know which one I feel betrayed by more. All I can think is that Eric went home with Craig from the bar drunk off his ass and crashed there. That there is nothing more to it than that. I really can't see Eric doing anything with Craig willingly. Which makes Craig sound bad. I know.
I guess it's stupid to even care, I don't want anything from either of them. I think I'm just being protective over Eric. Of course, it could just be a rumor. But Melissa said she heard it from both of them. Is it my place to ask one or both of them or should I just stay out of it and forget it? I really hate this.

Saturday night life

So I finally got to hang out with Jaymie Saturday night. She's cool, but it's hard to schedule anything with her. LOL. So we're sitting at this table with Jessica and Ross and some of her other friends from 10-midnight. Thats when Craig finally showed up. Then he doesn't even come talk to me for like another hour. So I get up with Jessica to go to the bathroom, and Denny, the hottest guy in the county is in there, and he speaks to me. My heart was beating so fast just because he said my name, that I couldn't even make myself pee. I wish I had a picture of him. I think he's like a younger Jake Gyllenhall, but with curlier dark hair and a more muscular body. LOL. So I left the bathroom without going.
Anyway, I sat back down with my friends and waited for Craig to come to me. I don't want to come off as desperate or easy! I'm playing hard to get. LOL. so, finally, he comes and sits down next to and I introduce him to the girls. He is on and off the dance floor and when he's gone, Jaymie tells me he's cute. So last call is called and low and behold two more bottles of Bud and a shot of Tequilla appear on the table before me. Bastards. I only got the Tequilla because I told Craig that he would NOT get any if he brought me a Jagger Bomb. Well, needless to say Craig left me to my drinking, and I handed Heidi one of the Bud's, Heidi gave Jenni her Bud light and I poured most of the Tequilla into Ross's drink. LOL. I cheated, but I had been there longer than Craig and I know my limits. Plus I wasn't in the mood for Tequilla. It was really bad going down, and it was just a third of the shot! So I got up and told everyone at the table goodnight, told Melissa I was leaving, and left (alone) without a word to Craig.

I dream of..

Last night I dreamt that my 10 month old god-daughter started walking. I love that little girl like she were my own flesh and blood. I already spoil her to no end and spend most of my free time with her, but this is the first time I've had a dream about her that I remember. She is growing up so fast, it seems like Mel just brought her home, but now she's getting ready to start walking!
This weekend was kinda nuts. I went out Friday night after work, without my friends, since Jaymie's son was sick, and none of my other friends were out. Craig was there and was very frisky, playing with my hair and rubbing my shoulders. But he was there with some other friends who kept him running around socializing. Altogether a boring night out. Saturday night was lots more interesting. I joined Mel and Joe for dinner with her Mom, Brownie, TJ, and Marcie. A few other friends joined us later for drinks. Needless to say Mel and I got extremely drunk. Not puking drunk but there are parts of the night we can't remember. Had more fun with Craig this time. I think I've decided to give him a chance, though I realized last night that no one will ever live up to the standards in my head. They either have the look but not the personality, or vice versa, but not both. My friend Red has a good point about fantasies. Something about ruining a fantasy when you get it. But maybe that's what we need. Someone to ruin our fantasy so that we don't hold anyone else up to that comparison. If I knew that Josh was not as perfect as I imagine, maybe I wouldn't see so much fault in Craig. Hmm, or maybe I need to see a shrink. LOL.

sick weekend

So, not only did I work all weekend, I ended up getting sick Monday. First a weekend recap though; Friday night I met my friends at the bar after work, Mel is trying so hard to hook me up with Craig. He's not any of my usual types, I'm really not finding myself attracted to him. Then, he brings me a Bud Light! What, I'm fat now and need light beer? WTF? Saturday night, I met my friends at the bar after 10:30, no Craig, had a pretty good time and made it home ok. Sunday after work, I meet Mel on the way to Dillons to get lunch, eat Potato soup and a salad and get sick. Worked till Noon Monday, then slept from 1:30 till 5:00. Had dinner at Sonic, hung out with Mel till about 8:30, then went home and was in bed before 10.
I dreamed about Denny last night/this morning. He is so hot. But my dream was rated G, and we all kept our clothes on. Too bad he is straight, he could so much better than the skanks he is always with. Well, at least I think he can. lol.

My weekend

Sunday I watched Mel's kids while her a J went to a company Christmas party. Then joined them at the bar after the baby-sitter relieved me. Mel had talked to Craig Saturday night, He showed up a little after I had left. They made plans for us all to meet Sunday night but he couldn't get a babysitter for his sisters kids. Ohh well, I'm sure Mel will keep trying to set us up. Not as easy as it sounds, both of us work two jobs and babysit in our off time. lol. Anyway, I had a fun night M showed up with P.J. and I danced with P.J. a couple songs and with M a couple songs. M called me a ho for dancing with her boy-toy while she karaoke. LOL! We had a real good time. It was funnier that she was singing "Before He Cheats" by Carrie Underwood. When the song ended I told her that I had changed one word in the song for her. Instead of "Shania karaoke" it should be "Reba karaoke" refering to M always singing Reba's "Fancy". lol, she didn't think it was too funny.