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I'm mostly using this blog as an outlet for my feelings and observations about my life. I don't update regularly, but only when something of interest happens in my life.

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Dain update 2

3/12- I have started recieving texts from Dain again. The time is 3:40pm.

Dain said: "TIMMY!!!"
I said: "What?!? Lol".
Dain: "Wtf are u doing?"
I said: "working hard as always of course!"
Dain said: "Lmao right."
I said: "so...whats up?"
Dain said: "N2m just out lookin 4 job"
I said: "What happened to your city job?"
Dain said: "I fuckd it off"
I said "thats smart, so now what?"
Dain said: "IDK yet lol"
I said: "good time to start a construction job."
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It's now 8:13 Dain said: "can you take a joke?"
I said: "yes"
Dain said:"k..roberto says hi"
Dain said:"I applied at Tico"
I said:"Thats smart"
Dain said:"wat?"
I said:"Thats smart, they pay min wage"
Dain said:"U work there"
I said:"yes parttime 2nd job, lol"
Dain said:"yaya"
I said:"Lol I guess its still a job"
Dain said:"Yup"
I said:"Karen's a pain in the ass sometimes"
Dain said:"What's new?"
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So now I'm wondering WTF? Should I ask him why he didn't talk to me for a month, and why he is talking to me now? Should I tell him that if he gets hired at Tico that it will only be for the summer and then they are demo-ing the building and re-building, meaning we will be out of work for like 2 or 3 months? Am I letting him walk all over me like a rug? Do I seem desperate for attention or has he come to terms with himself? I'm so lost. Apparently, I did the right thing and let him make first contact. But I really need something more to go on. Should I just ask him what he wants from me, i.e. friendship or more? Or should I just let it alone and see what happens? I really don't want him to play with me emotions, I have a hard enough time without that. And I'm still not sure about the joke question. Does he mean that applying at Tico was a joke or is there deeper meaning behind it, something about the last month? I feel like this boy is toying with me and I can't figure out the rules of the game.

Monday, March 10, 2008

Dain update

2/7- I have not heard from Dain. He won't return my texts and has not been around. Guys suck.
Anyways, I was out with some friends celebrating a birthday. Robert shows up and is texting me from across the bar about how Dain went to a party and woke up with hickies on his neck and Robert's mom was calling him a slut. I texted Dain and asked him about it then proceeded to tell him that if I had been at the party I would have left hickies on his neck, too. He asked if I was hitting on him and I told him that I wasn't. Robert texted me and asked if I was hitting on Dain, then told me to do it. Dain quit texting me after that. I guess he doesn't understand that I talk like that to all my friends. If he can't handle that, then it's his loss.

3/8- Dain sent me a fwd text message today. Not sure if it's an attempt to re-establish contact with me or if I was just on his group list to send fwds to. I didn't respond to it, mostly cause I'm so not going to let him play with my heart or my head that way. If he wants to talk, he can call me or send me a personal text. One month of no contact after texting or talking almost everyday is no way to start a friendship in my book. Not sure what to do now. Has he put the ball in my court? Should I wait for him to initiate contact on a personal level? Should I just ignore it and move on with my life? I have no idea what to do! AGHHHH