SOULMATE SEARCHING

I'm mostly using this blog as an outlet for my feelings and observations about my life. I don't update regularly, but only when something of interest happens in my life.

Thursday, May 24, 2007

ok cupid test results


Your Score: Buff bad boy


You scored 45% masculine, 58% athletic, 27% exotic, and 37% refined!



You like your men with a boyish or feminine face but a manly body. You like him to posess bad boy looks while still maintaining some innocence. He looks like the all-American kind of hunk and I bet you love someone like.......Travis Fimmel. But let's face it, the whole point of this was to look at a bunch of hot guys. If you liked what you saw, please rate my test!

Link: The What type of MAN turns you on Test written by thinkandcome on OkCupid, home of the The Dating Persona Test

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

My Tarot Card


You are The Lovers


Motive, power, and action, arising from Inspiration and Impulse.


The Lovers represents intuition and inspiration. Very often a choice needs to be made.


Originally, this card was called just LOVE. And that's actually more apt than "Lovers." Love follows in this sequence of growth and maturity. And, coming after the Emperor, who is about control, it is a radical change in perspective. LOVE is a force that makes you choose and decide for reasons you often can't understand; it makes you surrender control to a higher power. And that is what this card is all about. Finding something or someone who is so much a part of yourself, so perfectly attuned to you and you to them, that you cannot, dare not resist. This card indicates that the you have or will come across a person, career, challenge or thing that you will fall in love with. You will know instinctively that you must have this, even if it means diverging from your chosen path. No matter the difficulties, without it you will never be complete.


What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.



Thursday, May 17, 2007

60-mins. gay or straight

I just watched these clips and wanted to share.

http://60minutes.yahoo.com/segment/68/gay_or_straight

I don't agree with the 'older brother theory'. In part because I'm the oldest of 4 boys and as far as I know, I'm the only one that is gay, and we are all four right handed. I do agree with some of the things they said about moving and speaking, though their stats are a little hard to believe. As for the twin boys, IMHO, the fem. one is more transexual, not just gay. He says at the end of the video that he wishes he were a girl.

I don't wish I were a girl. I'm happy being a Guy that likes Guys. I don't feel that I'm a girl trapped in a guys body, or even that I may have been a female in a past life. I don't even know what could have contributed to my being this way. As far as I know I was a normal boy who liked trucks, playing in the dirt, and watching cartoons(gi joe AND rainbow brite). I don't like to clean but I hate living in a dirty environment and I know other gay guys that need to clean up a lot. My friends tell me that they wouldn't know I was gay unless I told them. So my mannerisms don't give it away.

The whole twin thing is very interesting. I would like to see more data from more sets of twins.

A feeling in my chest

Ok, I'm falling for a guy I work with at my part-time job. The problem(s) are that: 1. He likes girls, 2. He's 16, 3. He's in high school, 4. He's the bosses step-son. But everytime he looks into my eyes my heart stops. I can't get over it, and the song "Teardrops on my guitar" by Taylor Swift says it all. I'm not even sure why I feel this way about him. Maybe it's because he treats me like a friend or looks me in the eye or is comfortable around me. Or maybe it's something else that I can't put my finger on. Sometimes I feel over protective of him when his female friends come into the store, I want to tell them to leave him alone but it's not my place.
He's not God's gift; he has issues with ADHD, anger, and depression; he doesn't even go to regular HS, he goes to the alternitive center. Then I think of the song "so complicated" by Carolyn Dawn Johnson, and I keep all this to myself. Anyway, just needed to get this off my chest.

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

delivery

The delivery guy that was just here was VERY hot. About 6' trim and toned, very nice ass in faded jeans, just a hint of stubble and freshly cut hair. A nice voice, not too deep, but def. masculine. Very much a distraction, but a welcome one for sure.

Thursday, May 03, 2007

Rain, Rain...

I'm so tired of the rain! Plus the city is doing work on my street, and I have to park away from my house so I am now all wet. And it stopped raining like 10 mins after I got back from lunch. GRRRRR....